I'm having a bad day. Last night I picked up my father at the airport, and his plane was late, and I didn't eat and was getting progressively more tired. Anyway, we are almost home when my mobile rings twice in a row, odd given the hour. Then a minute later the "check engine" light comes on. In my brand. new. car. Got home and pulled out the manual, couldn't find a reason why it came on, pissed because I have had the car for a FUCKING WEEK. One week. Check the missed calls on the mobile; it's some number I don't recognize. Then my home phone rings; again, weird because it's about 11:40pm. Caller ID says it is the same number from my mobile. I pick it up, say hello, and there is a good 4-5 second pause before the caller hangs up. But I know the call is meant for me because of the mobile phone calls. We look up the area code: Pontiac, Michigan. The only fucker I know that is from Michigan is Tom, ex-boyfriend of 3 months last year that went freaky on me and stalked me for over four months. I finally filed a complaint against him and it went to court and the judge signed an arrest warrant on the basis of harrassment. I hadn't heard from him since January (maybe, I had a weird call in March/April once), and JUST YESTERDAY I was thinking maybe I should go to the sherriff's office to have the warrant, what, deactivated? I don't know, but figured it had been long enough to drop it. And then last night. Plus the car fucking up just putting a glaze of shit over everything. Not surprisingly, had fitful and unhappy dreams. I just want it to be over. I just want not to feel scared anymore. I want the fist of nausea in my stomach thinking about that situation all over again to go away. I want a man to be angry about this and protect me. And I don't mean my dad, although I know he would do his best. He was being really sweet to me this morning, and I felt like shit that I didn't buy any groceries or clean up the house.
Anyway, my HR colleague from Puerto Rico calls this morning about rescheduling a meeting, and I point out that the resked might be a blessing in disguise because of some resources that would be available to us later. And she says, in her lovely heavy Puerto Rican accent, "You seeee? Everything has a purrrpose."
And I said, "Yes, it does. Yes, it does." Now I just have to figure out what it is.
postscript: Well, car dealership just called. They want me to turn it in tonight, should have everything done by noon tomorrow. They are going to loan me a Jetta. Ew. Sorry to all you Jetta drivers out there, but if you had a new car, you'd be pissed too.
Thursday, July 22, 2004
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